This morning something so revolutionary occurred. I was in bed and I felt my heart beat and I told myself that I have a purpose. I felt like I was reclaiming my life consciously and not just saying it – it was a very reassuring moment for me.
This Sunday I am grateful for life – I thank God that I am here breathing. I am grateful for self-awareness; so many of us unconsciously walk through life and we need to realise that that itself is not okay. The need to own your emotions, own your self, to own your thoughts is very vital. I am someone that is always so greatly aware of my thoughts, my emotions, and my self and I find this ability to be such a blessing. There is nothing as powerful as being one with your self.
Although, this past week I was mostly feeling like a child failing to adult successfully, I am grateful for Sundays that give me a chance to put into perspective my ways and thoughts so that this coming week is better than the last. Sundays give me a chance to forgive myself for being so hard on myself and to surrender to life. I am thankful for the knowing that I can re-evaluate my life and choose how I want to go forth with this journey of life.
Ever since I started blogging, it has become some form of therapy for me. I find healing in releasing and creating, its very therapeutic and for this reason I am thankful for life cause without it I wouldn’t have reached this point. Sunday gratitude also allows for vital re-adjustments to happen, it is accepting that okay this is where I’m at right now, what can I do to be better and to do better.
Sundays are gentle reminders that I am a wonder, Gods greatest creation and I hold the power I seek, the love I seek and that I am constantly unbecoming to become; unlearning to learn. Even though I am not where I want to be but I believe that I am where I need to be in this moment.
In closing, I would like to say that consistent gratitude is something that I think we should all partake in. Its opens up a channel for all life’s blessings to fall through. I have come to the end of my consistent gratitude challenge but I will obviously continue doing this but will not blog about it the way I have been.
As human beings we are ever evolving and that is a great and much needed part of life. Yet in times of evolving we must be weary of the fact that each version of oneself is the right version for that time – each version of yourself is there to serve a purpose at that time. In other words, the current version of you is the right version of you for this moment.
We are always so quick to think of our next move – after high school comes college/university after that I need a job – and most times we are so quick to define ourselves by our situations or what we do for a living not realising that by doing so, we are allowing ourselves to be defined by temporary situations or things. How many times have we heard this line before after someone has been asked to introduce themselves/tell the audience who they are: ‘hello my name is so-and-so, I’m 26 years old and I am an engineer.’ Obviously each line pans out according to the individual but the point I am trying to make here is that, in that introduction you have told everyone about your current affairs – you won’t be 26 years old in a year and there is always a possibility of that you not be an engineer forver.
Why do we do this ? Why do we continuously define ourselves by what could be non-existent in a split second, by things that are not from within? The only answer I could think of was that it is because we give our situations and/or materialistic aspects of our lives so much power without realising that your true power is what resonates from within, it is what you create, what you believe is your sole purpose in life. This conclusion led to an epiphany that in the process of being so fixated on our next move or what we don’t have or what we need to accomplish we lose the essence of life which is being present in your present self which will ultimately serve you graciously.
When one concurs that their current version is the right version for this moment, life becomes smoother to some degree. To surrender means to stop resisting whatever it is you are trying to fight against. Now imagine surrendering to your current self, what are you to lose – nothing. This is not to say one must stop working towards being the person that they want to be, instead it is simply saying ‘okay, I surrender to who I am right now but in the meantime I will be putting in the work to become the person I want to become.’ By doing so God and the universe will respond and give you the blessings and lessons this self needs in order to birth your next self. Essentially, that is how evolving works – in my opinion atleast.
The last thing I would like to say or suggest is that we allow ourselves to be the people we are in that moment because that will open up a way for the next version of yourself to unfold.
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It was a Thursday morning and I was reflecting on the things I’ve been through – good and bad, so that includes my achievements and the storms I’ve been through and come out stronger than before. I then had a moment where I was really proud of myself and wanted to celebrate myself and my victories by posting something on social media. But I didn’t because I thought that this move would be perceived as ‘boastful.’
But why is that? Why is it that as human beings – I generalise because I know that I am not the only one – we think twice or even three times about giving ourselves a pat on the shoulder just as a reminder that “hey, even though you are not who you want to be as yet neither are you where you want to be as yet, but you are becoming and have achieved so much. You are here. Right now that is enough and that is worth celebrating.”
As I think of my closest friends, I am struck by a moment of sonder – we are all complex and unique in a way that one can never fully comprehend so why search for validation from another being to celebrate your own victories that only you know about and understand.
There is a saying by Lao Tzu “Care about what others think and you will always be their prisoner.” By thinking that I would be perceived as being boastful by celebrating myself, essentially what I was doing was unintentionally volunteering for a trapped existence of discontent. Why was I not content with just having a one-man celebration of myself? Why can we not be content with just ourselves knowing that we are worth celebrating with or without another person’s validation?
The truth is if we want to blaze our own brilliant trail
through this life and be happy, we have to unlearn this thing of thinking that
our lives, our victories, our achievements, are only worth celebrating if there
is a second or third person to confirm and validate this. If you wake up in the
morning and you feel like having a thread on your social media platform of your
achievements, go for it, and do not apologize for it. Simply because nobody
knows what it took for you to get to where you are. It does not even have to be
on social media, speak good words to yourself, be kinder to yourself. Stop
being your worst critic.
If it is important to you and is mentally and emotionally good for you, GO FOR IT! Stop apologizing for boldly celebrating yourself. Celebrate yourself and your victories unapologetically. I want to challenge you for this week: as you step into the new week, make it a point to boldly celebrate something about you that you love or a time you thought you weren’t going to make it but you did. Celebrate also the bad habits you have cut ties with such as giving yourself to people that no longer serve you because that is a step towards loving yourself better and that is worth celebrating.